cocoon

  LOOKING FOR SOMETHING… Walking down the lanes of memories, I stop at each station and search. I twist all the branches out of my way, I jump over all the boulders. I run through the empty streets, I knock on the closed windows. I pant; I wait for a breath, Then again I started, all alone. I conclude those lanes to be wrong. I cradle my head in my hands, I have reached the dead end. My knees dropped, my tears finding its way. I look around only to find crowd, They wait, and they wait, For my answer, which I have none. They turn their back leaving me all alone, And I pull up myself to start over again

I am afraid… I compelled myself to pen it down, Struggling hard with the inner fear, They won’t accept it, I know; The rawness of being human. I see them hovering on me, I fear not their acceptance, For that, I care not even a bit, I am afraid to be naked. The words leave me defenseless, I need no cover from their rejection, But their love, I despise, It’s poisonous enough to kill a snake. Still I compelled myself to pen it down, To be alive in this dead cold world, My words pull me out from anesthesia, I warm my shivering heart in it. I try to stand up and stamp my feet, They had frozen and joints hardened, I should run to save myself, From what they call it, love.

dats wat i felt when i changed my place. numb.!!! u dont know whether to b happy to have changed ur old boring lifestyle or sad to leave all dat ws comfortable. yet wat i feel is numbness. this numbness creates a methodical analyses of surroundings,..i know i m getting a bit statistical but this analyses do take place and i let it go its way. new place..first question is "shelter"...not after much efforts i got one.. about dat i ll write later as i need to shift to there in a week r so.. next question is adjusting ur senses to check out the "transportation"...too bad in this area. i forgot the main one... "language"..u ask the same thing in different languages.. ur efficiency in all of ur known languages is tested and u conclude dat u need to add this new one to ur knowledge bank if u dont want to talk using all ur body parts... then its "food"..taste buds get superb chance to get tested and tried. spicy not so spicy..weird looking and blank ones